Hull; where I learned photography from Clee Rimmer in the early 70's at
Hull College of Art, and how to drink from various friends and other
public-spirited, well-wishers.
I should have taken more photographs of the place before most of what I
remembered disappeared.
Although it did inspire my 'Barlife' study, a body of work
dedicated to bars, cafés, and pool halls, any place where people and
alcohol mix.
As a student I remember the quality of light pouring through various
enormous plate glass windows in Wilson's corner, The Paragon and The
Theatre Tavern.
Packed boozers where people dressed against the cold. Hard floors, hard
tables, hard chairs, hard men, except they didn't seem to be. A place of
'Deckie Learners' in amazing suits, Hull Brewery mild, dominoes and
darts, friendly, good humoured, tolerant.
And smoke, lots and lots of smoke.
You don't get bars like that any more.
Hull doesn’t really belong anywhere, it’s on the edge, ‘a surprise of a
large town’, dominated by the river, which gave the City its livelihood
and its folklore, it’s slow presence never far away either physically or
in your mind.
This is where I grew up, a time when the town had barge crowded waters,
her people making the best of dead end jobs of which there seemed to be
no end. "A cut price crowd, urban yet simple"
A place with an uncertain future, where you learned to be grateful for
what you had. Phil Larkin, made a go of his job here, even though his
heart was somewhere else. He wanted to be a novelist, settled for being
a Librarian, threw in a bit of poetry to get stuff off his chest while
doing his day job, and nailed as bleak a view on the pointlessness of
existence as you can find anywhere.
"They f*#k you up your mum and dad. They may not mean to but they do."
Grim isn't it?
And yet he still managed to keep going.
Proper Hull.
Although no stranger to the pubs in the land of Green Ginger he seems to
have done most of his drinking at home, which was a pity since the pubs
in Hull had a lot to offer.
It was in him; I bet he was good at the bar, been a bit of a laugh, and
it would have done him good - and those around him to see the relief of
the anesthetic at work on his introspection.
Cold, aloof, awkward fish, stuck in a place going nowhere. But, and in
spite of himself he still managed to leave us with a poignant but rare
bit of hope.
"What will survive of us is love."
What a cracker!
Whereas the boozy, bonhomie of Auden, evaporated quite quickly facing
his own desolation. He could only manage a grim, despairing finale.
"I thought love would last forever: I was wrong."
Phil wasn’t a Johnny come lately kind of poet.
He was a ‘bitter ender’.
That’s true grit.